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Acai here we be once more.
My name is Lara, as many of you know 
. I am a Junior at Nonyabusiness highschool.
And let me just say my friends...
It's ccccrrAP!
(I feel as though that's the wrong use of that phrase)
I went from the comfort of last year to this crazy ass year, FILLED with just piles and piles of growing up!!! And mind you, yes everyone does it eventually, and yes we've all been preparing in our minds to make this wild transition, but hell does it come fast!!
Now, me being myself, I am indeed excited for the new changes. I'm going to be driving in a few months, I'm going to have a job (which means I'll have more flexibility with what I do). But I'm just stressed from all the preparation!!
Am I overreacting? Perhaps.
But you have to understand that I'm still missing the days where I could be more relaxed and not feel pressed for figuring out what to do with my life!! (Granted I'd LOVE to become a writer, however it's not a sufficient full-time job)
I envy my younger self sometimes. I remember those days where I could just sit down and write a BUNCH of poetry. I never had to think when I did that!! Now I can't even write a verse without spending fifteen minutes on how to make it sounds good!! The mojo that I get for my writing barely comes to me (Fortunately when it comes it stays for a while) but it's not there consistently like it used to be.
I've had a wonderful idea for a valentine's day poem for a while but now that it's almost time to get cracking I have no idea what to write :/
Hell, I'm a sixteen year old girl who's finally getting a taste of what it's like to be at this age. When we're little, we dream of being at this age. We dream of waking up on our 16th birthday and getting a new car!! (And somehow already having the license). We all dream of having a longtime best friend who may become a romantic interest. And we CRAVE being able to go out on our own and head to college.
...But it's terrifying!
Lol, I'm just ranting guys. I'm greatly sorry if I ruined a day or confused someone!
Happy Early Valentines day, guys! Enjoy it. And if you don't have someone to celebrate with in the real world, your friends at dA are always here for you!
...Except when we're offline xD
Bye guys!
